And not that good where you’re like “FUCK YES I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT THIS LIFE IS AMAZING” More like I’m at peace, and I really like it. I think I’ve found the right balance of work and having fun.
That’s the main thing that got to me this year, I aspire to do so much and have the drive and I have the potential, but I would stress myself out so much that I would relapse with my eating. I just have to make sure I don’t over work myself.
Today I probably could’ve gotten more done but tomorrow is going to be a busy day and I don’t plan on losing any minute of it.
I’m officially a member of #District3PN. Become a citizen today. The 74th Hunger Games is coming March 23. http://TheCapitol.PN
Don’t do your homework for one night
Skip class
Call in sick from work
Go out late at night, roll your windows down, blast music and speed.
Party
Stay up all night
A little bit of irresponsibility isn’t going to kill you. As long as you remember the bigger picture and make sure that nothing puts that into jeopardy, make bad choices.
Especially when you’re young, because even being 19 years old I feel like I’m 30 and every small decision will make or break me. In reality now is the time to be a irresponsible. Don’t throw whatever you worked for away for a night of fun, but don’t be a stickler 24/7. It isn’t healthy
Demi Lovato,
Y U GOTTA WRITE LYRICS THAT DEFINE MY LIFE?
When you like someone who’s never ever gonna think anything of you.
YOLOOO
One Direction concert is sold out.
I’m about to go postal on anyone who says they got tickets, even if its a nine year old girl
BITCH DID YOU VOTE FOR THEM ON X FACTOR? NO BECAUSE YOU WERE FUCKING 7 AND DIDNT GIVE A RATS ASS.
AND YOU JUST ARE OBSESSED WITH THEIR CUTENESS, IM OBSESSED WITH THEIR TALENT
fucking mad
I’m just gonna sit here and listen to them while eating my cookies and cry all day long, BYE
I wanna make music
I wanna make fashion
I wanna make films that touch peoples souls
I wanna live in freedom from my eating disorder
I’m not gonna stop
I’m not gonna let my disease, my insecurities or any human being stop me
Eating disorders aren’t easy, they’re like an addiction. No, they are an addiction. Compulsive over eating has been something that my entire family struggles with and I have really bad. I remember from a very young age being addicted to eating. I would eat when I was sad, happy, excited, bored anything. Food was always there when I was alone and depressed as kid from being harassed and bullied. Then when I realized how fat and hideous I was I decided to stop eating. Someone then told me I could die from that, and I didn’t want that. I decided to restrict and diet. I was 13. It didn’t stop until I was 16. When I was 16 the compulsive overeating started again and then the vicious cycle of shoving over 2,000 calories of food down my mouth for weeks and then eating about 1,300 and working out to the point of exhaustion and burning off mostly everything I had eaten started. That still happens to this day. I stopped living in this cycle right before graduation. Everytime I see food it’s not like I think “Wow this looks so good!” I think of how many calories it has and everything I have to do to burn it off and how much I have to eat tomorrow to cancel it out. Even orange juice. I can’t even think about it when I drink it, because I had a giant fear of fruit juices. And soda, god that causes so much anxiety it isn’t even funny. I feel like I’ll never be healed or fixed, but I know that I can get to a place of peace. In fact up until recently I have been, but then I realized I could gain a few pounds and since I always strived for thinness I decided to try and diet for gains, that still turned into a warped eating disorder. I realize that I can’t do this anymore, I have to listen to my body and guide myself through what my body tells me and what I feel.
If anyone reading this suffers from an eating disorder or depression, please find help. I know how much it helps and that it will help you. Stay Strong <3
It’s just one of those days where I want doubt I’ll amount to anything. I like music and fashion, but I can’t design or sing/write music. I love writing and being on the radio like I am in school, but if I could do anything with my life it would be A.) Act 2.) Produce music 3.) Design clothes. I feel like I have no talent to do any of these things. But that’s where I’m wrong
If there’s anything I’ve learned with treatment it’s that if I want to try something I have to. I want to look back at my life and say “I didn’t have enough regrets in life” and that when you put your mind to something, you really can accomplish it.
You just have to come into it like a beast, and let nothing stop you.
